Glass half something or other

My oh my, where doth the time go? It's almost been two months since my last entry where I said I would try to keep up my blogging during my travels. I wish I could tell you that I've been saving orphans or brilliantly penning the next Great American Novel, but then I'd be lying.

I'm not here to complain, but if I was it would be totally fair game since this would be one place where I'd feel entitled to do it.

I don't know if I'm a glass half empty or a glass half full kind of person anymore, or rather if I ever really knew. If you asked high-school me (whom I've mentioned before) she would say glass half empty right away. But she was teenage angst at her finest; then I turned 20 and decided when you're no longer a teenager being angsty just makes you sad (read: pathetic).

I used to work in a very negative workplace, where I became that always-positive person just to counter balance all the negativity around me. Sure, we'll say it was for team morale, but really it was just to save my own ass from becoming a cold, embittered person. But right now I'm kind of half something, be it full or empty.

I'm halfway through a lot of things and that's not like me. I'm halfway (or so) through writing a long ass blog entry about my trip to Asia (which feels like eons ago). I'm halfway through sending a package to the very kind family (friend of friend) who housed me (and said friend) for a weekend in Chicago. I'm halfway through handwriting an "epic" (laughably so) story which I know I'll want to remember in the future for its absurdity. I'm typically 100% into what I'm doing, but I'm feeling this immense lack of inspiration these days, as if I'm too lethargic to do anything. I can't find the right physical surrounding or the distinct quietness to write in and I'm finding it hard to motivate myself to do all the things that matter to me.

Maybe I am just complaining now, but I don't hate my life or anything or think woe is me, I have so many problems. I'm just in a funk, I guess and I'm hoping to see/feel/meet/do something that inspires me to bring back my alacrity, put sparkle back in my eyes and bounce back in my step. This rut will not be cured by a new pair of shoes. However, should anyone wish to contribute to a new pair, I shan't discourage you.

I hope you have less trouble falling asleep and less of the impending cycle of coffee that accompanies insomnia than I do.

xoxo,
-S.